soo... a real update...huzzah!

things have been going really well since i got back to school, despite my pangs of nervousness before i actually arrived...

my classes are awesome - biological anthropology, cinema, psychology, and music: the symphony...

anthro exactly what i'd hoped...it's anthro (which is sooo interesting), but with just enough science that i don't feel guilty about dropping chem...but let's face it, i'd be a pretty sad excuse for a science major :-P
we're doing genetics right now, which is pretty sweet because i get to think about the fact that i'm something of a genetic miracle...and sarah's in my class, so everytime we talk about twins, etc. i get to be like, "yeah, we know how it is..."
haha...i'm suuuch a dork...

butyeah, cinema this semester is a four hour night class (6:15-10pm), though we haven't stayed the whole time yet...and we're watching art films --- as in, modern art in film form/film poetry/weird interpretive cinema...
half the class left midway through the first night...hehe, go figure...i think it'll be mind-broadening though...i don't usually have to think like that...
omg, but the professor picks three papers to read at the beginning of each class (we have to write 250 words every week on what we watched in the previous class) and she happened to pick mine as the third last class...that was nerve-wracking...yet she didn't rip it apart, so it coulda been muuuuch worse...phewph

pysc is good so far...not too much else to say...it's cool shit, yo...

music is soooooo great. it makes me soso happy to be there. it also happens to be my last class of the week, so it's perfect timing...
the professor is this little old lady, gray hair, squintly eyes...really cute and really into the topic/music in general...everytime she plays us a sample of a work she gets this far away, delighted look on her face and looks lovingly at her desk covered in records and cds of all this music...i find myself just watching her sometimes...
...not in a creepy way!
she's fabulous

umumum...i'm still doing orchestra and women's chorus (bla on women's chorus)...i didn't get into harpur chorale which sucks...because wc/our conductor WILL drive me crazy...
luckily, dr. perry is still letting me do orchestra (and hopefully sit in the front) even though my cinema class conflicts with a rehearsal...i really like him :-)

lessons will start up again soon too...yep...

ohman, after my last class today, i practiced for two hours (alternating piano/violin/piano)...i just got in this zone about halfway through the violin stuff and felt really powerful, like i was hearing what i wanted to hear...it was great...
i didn't really wanna go but my tummy was grumbly and my contacts were screaming for moisture, so alas, until another day...hopefully i can do that again...

...
sorta new topic

i've been thinking about majors lately
at this point, i'd LOVE to be able to just triple major (not make a decision) in music, cinema, and anthropology...that'd be AWESOME...but...i'm thinkin' i might end up really liking psych too...ohgod! what to do???

...
seriously NEW TOPIC

do you ever feel like you just want to take back something you said as soon as you say it?
like, "ohgod, now they think that i'm an idiot..."
or, "sheesh, that really makes me look unstable..."
or, "i think that was bitchy...or at least they seemed to take it that way...damn..."

or else you're just not saying anything because the topic being discussed is something with which you have no experience/you don't know the people that are being referenced...and it's AWKWARD...and you just wanna be like, "I WOULD SAY SOMETHING IF I KNEW WHO/WHAT YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT! ...i'm not just some shy freak..."

hate that...

i always want to correct people about their impressions of me...like, "nono, that's not what i meant by that," or, "sorry, you've got that wrong"
...but so many times, i'm not even sure that's necessary, or else it would just be inappropriate to bring it up

maybe i'm the one that's off the mark?

you, there: i assure you that you don't need to worry about anything of that sort, seriously, i'm sortof classy sometimes, i promise...

if you were to ask though, i wouldn't lie, i'd tell you there are no "goings on" with me and anyone at this point.